Being a wife and a mom is the hardest thing I have ever experienced. I have to admit, sometimes I wish I never got married. I have given up so much of myself and acquired a different culture and a totally different life that I don't know myself anymore. When I feel exhausted and alone I fantasize about going back to my old life. It wasn't that great but at least it's familiar and I was surrounded by people who love and support me. I am waiting for the Lord to rescue me or at least give me a little relief. I am sinking into depression, self pity and self destruction in order to comfort myself. I need help but there's no one to help me. I need somebody to understand but everybody is busy with their own lives they don't want to bother listening to me.  I feel like I'm in my own island.